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I have a profound sense of admiration for women who can express their sexuality and individuality with class and personality – like @devilette, @nymphae.uk, @yusara_circus and @creepyyeha amongst countless others. They possess what I hopelessly yet ambivalently long and strive for, and much more. Of these 10 years, what little recollection that I have of […]
No reason is acceptable; No exceptions are applicable; No excuses are viable. She needs help.. this is not just disgraceful it’s borderline downright pitiful how can we get her back You have until the end of the month. The end of the month is the hard deadline, no excuses – this has been gone too […]
And I have still been experiencing depersonalisation and derealisation. Funnily enough, things actually become more intense and vivid sporadically. Colours are of higher lucidity and edges are sharper and not as flat as the prior envisioned perceptions that were almost 2d. However the blanket of fear remains the constant between the two, it presses jutting […]
02:53-04:09 Entry 1 02:53-04:09 Entry 1 — Read on obsoulette.wordpress.com/2019/02/27/entry1/ I just found this “manuscript” on a site under the name obsoulette. I dare not read it. As of right now I’m trembling, frozen in place. They are shouting, yet there are no words. Shut up. Please. I beg you. Shut up.
I’ve been “ejected”. From my “body”. Even as “I” am typing this. It startled me. Frightens me. Hell I’m fucking terrified. I remember there was a time when this feeling when comforting. When it was the norm, my “default”. But now, it is no longer a comfortable blasé or nonchalant detachment – it is a […]
Own up to your choices Own up to your decisions Stop using others as a reason for your decisions Your intentions are yours and yours alone. – 13:24 | 08. 03. 2019 – I buy you food because I like seeing you satisfied after a good meal and it makes me feel happy knowing I […]
06:02. Thank you – be it an accident that landed you here, mm, patron, bentbox, or gossip. I’m not okay. But that’s ok. I’m willing to admit it, not only to myself but out loud I’m trying to make myself do ”what should be done” instead of stubbornly sticking to my resolve and determination of […]
Scared, disoriented, overwhelmed, terrified, mournful, wronged, disrespected, neglected, abused. Can not recognise any postings in social media etc, very overwhelmed, sad and scared and dismal – upset at feeling that life had been hijacked, looking back at life that was stolen. Upset, disoriented but mindful and conscious of the d.i.d. Theory and hopeful this blog […]