Confidentiality

All content is for individual viewing purposes only and not to be redistributed or used for any other purposes. Please understand the implications of the risks I am taking in order to share this side of me with you – it is a leap of faith I am taking. I know once it’s out it […]

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The Final? Verdict

In lieu of the long overdue and owed pile of content held back by indecisiveness… I have decided to “release” raw unadulterated previews of the albums that have piled up – whilst I hastily execute the decision to segregate the nsfw alter ego from the pseudo writer and once again abandon the unrealistic yearning for […]

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NUDES

Nudes. Sex. Porn. Free. These words easily grab our attention, don’t they? You probably figured out by now. I lied. I’m sorry. I’ve been AWOL in terms of media and I truly did not do this on purpose – I have been (as you probably figured out too) “dealing” with issues. (Again. Yeah. I’m tired of […]

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Let her cry

It is liberating to be able to cry unconfined by judgement, scrutiny or empathy. It should be encouraged; for one to be truly in touch with them-self. To be not only in touch with subconscious desires, thoughts and drives – but also emotions. To be able & willing to acknowledge them ; to be consciously […]

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Wean to be lean?

Sorry for the impromptu inactivity, instead of weaning off my medication I had (foolishly) decided to go cold turkey (again). Needless to say, that was a bad idea. I’m beginning to wonder if this was the cause of all of this, considering the timing, intensity and nature of my struggles which can actually be explained […]

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Vulnerable Resilience

I have a profound sense of admiration for women who can express their sexuality and individuality with class and personality – like @devilette, @nymphae.uk, @yusara_circus and @creepyyeha amongst countless others. They possess what I hopelessly yet ambivalently long and strive for, and much more. Of these 10 years, what little recollection that I have of […]

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I have been upset with the redirect loop we have been stuck in

And I have still been experiencing depersonalisation and derealisation. Funnily enough, things actually become more intense and vivid sporadically. Colours are of higher lucidity and edges are sharper and not as flat as the prior envisioned perceptions that were almost 2d. However the blanket of fear remains the constant between the two, it presses jutting […]

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21.03.2019

03:55 The vanity she refuses to acknowledge she has surfaced but we’ve come to a compromise for the site icon and didn’t choose one with her as the subject. Eh, we’ll do it later. I’m having way too much fun and I don’t want to go but I really should , she needs to call […]

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Transparent

March 7, 2019 I’m grateful for the stash of instant noodles in my cupboards and the luxury of having a roof over my head with heat, electricity and Internet access – but apart from this all else is falling apart. I am struggling to maintain my fading grasp on will and consciousness. As of recently […]

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