visualise my life contained in a series of layers in time, like a Russian doll; each layer marking a point in my life where a particular feeling was very strong, such as an experience of family loss, betrayal or feeling alone. The layers go deeper, backwards in time until finally at the point of birth where […]
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06:02. Thank you – be it an accident that landed you here, mm, patron, bentbox, or gossip. I’m not okay. But that’s ok. I’m willing to admit it, not only to myself but out loud I’m trying to make myself do ”what should be done” instead of stubbornly sticking to my resolve and determination of […]
#nobb no more babying #nobb no more bullshit I know it’s difficult but she’s your mother. She’s doing it for you because she’s your mother. #nobb no more babying, no more bullshit, no more gaslighting, no more guilt trips. Emotional abuse is real, as is trauma. Motherhood is not an excuse. For every 125 men, […]
The end goal is to live isn’t it. What if you don’t actually want to live. Not depressed. Just depleted of will or energy to justify all this meaningless purpose. Let me go, without blame or shame? Leave me some of that “dignity”? Don’t let me become an excuse for your nothingness? Please?
The general population is much more informed about mental illness nowadays compared to ten years ago, but is the awareness counterproductive? (Written February 3, 2019) For example, many say they are depressed and it is so commonplace that there are countless support lines and communities for it. But it seems as though this results in […]
I’m all for awareness and understanding but I can’t help but feel like this comes off as playing victim and painting the afflicted as weak and helpless – but that may be the denial in me. However, I would like to see it as my determination to retain responsibility and hence control – by being […]
Don’t be in such a hurry to grow up. It is rewarding to be self sufficient, responsible and willing and capable to make your choices, yes… but you have a lifetime of taxes, wages, liabilities and responsibilities ahead of you. Enjoy what you can while it lasts. It is true when they say you can […]
It seems the little moments of triumph following what seems like clarity only last so long… those five minutes of honest self-appreciation and acknowledgement of what was and can be of the long forsaken and disdained confidence and mettle. It is truly heartbreaking when it takes more than an hour to recognise the overwhelmingly foreign […]
Scared, disoriented, overwhelmed, terrified, mournful, wronged, disrespected, neglected, abused. Can not recognise any postings in social media etc, very overwhelmed, sad and scared and dismal – upset at feeling that life had been hijacked, looking back at life that was stolen. Upset, disoriented but mindful and conscious of the d.i.d. Theory and hopeful this blog […]
Of the blaring similarities observable between thoughts and behaviours designated from my inner voices to my outward actions … and that of diagnostic hallmarks of certain illnesses in the DSM; traits and conditions specifically tailored to identity certain patterns…. specifically that of Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar, Dissociative Amnesia, DID & various characteristics that suggest a […]
Becoming a Parent’s Parent: Some people with BPD report that their role in the family was to take care of their mother’s emotional needs. This creates a conflict between the child’s need for parental support and permission to grow up and become an independent person and the child’s sense of responsibility towards the mother. 02.24.19?
sadly get lost in translation more often than not. The irony of the ruthless onslaught of nameless emotions being a precursor to anhedonia is not lost on me.
但不跌不撞；又怎領會到傷的悲，歡的喜，痛的哭，樂的意？ 父母不再付托身後而獨自承受陌生難處痛處的他們又該如何？ 父母付出的：要懂得愛惜，珍惜，感激，感恩……但千萬不能凭依。 同時，作為父母的：也要懂得適當的放手，不要讓愛成為無形的羁绊。 離不開娇惯的孩兒：不管白髮皺皮，雞皮鶴發………也只不過是長不大的孩兒。
or have I simply been misspelling “no”? Please, for the love of god, if you can’t accept rejection – at the very least – deal with your denial afterwards… outright denial in the face of rejection is so ludicrous it stupidifies one to the point where laughter transcends physical manifestation.
retrieved 17.02.2019 from bustle | published 16.10.2015 by Gabrielle Moss Even the most chill relationships between mothers and daughters have their bumps in the road. It’s pretty much impossible to always be on the same page as the people who raised you, especially as you get older. But if your conflicts with your mother seem to go […]
Oppression presented as acceptance
The general population is much more informed about mental illness nowadays compared to ten years ago, but is the awareness counterproductive? Mental illness is depicted to be commonplace and numerous support lines and communities have been constructed through the efforts of the awareness movement. However, with the awareness comes a sense of normality that accompanies […]
You can be that someone. Finding someone else to fill a void in yourself will never work, no one is able to fill it properly but you ! And until then even if you are in a relationship you will always find the same issues rising. Stop searching for that someone and be the person […]
It’s not the drugs or alcohol. People shouldn’t be blaming alcohol and drugs and demonising them. They aren’t the problems, they are just a manifestation of an existing problem. I’m not saying alcohol is good, I’m saying that people should put less focus on the substances and behaviour and instead perhaps try to search for […]