[тш] Internalised Inferiority

DISCLAIMER: This image is a means of expression and is NOT an accurate, realistic or healthy portrayal of human anatomy. Please see the end of the post for the before/after. I DO NOT promote or advocate unhealthy body images, and have gained much weight since then. I’m sorry if you were upset by the images […]

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I have been upset with the redirect loop we have been stuck in

And I have still been experiencing depersonalisation and derealisation. Funnily enough, things actually become more intense and vivid sporadically. Colours are of higher lucidity and edges are sharper and not as flat as the prior envisioned perceptions that were almost 2d. However the blanket of fear remains the constant between the two, it presses jutting […]

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Treatment and Therapy

The end goal is to live isn’t it. What if you don’t actually want to live. Not depressed. Just depleted of will or energy to justify all this meaningless purpose. Let me go, without blame or shame? Leave me some of that “dignity”? Don’t let me become an excuse for your nothingness? Please?

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Dear <22’s:

Don’t be in such a hurry to grow up. It is rewarding to be self sufficient, responsible and willing and capable to make your choices, yes… but you have a lifetime of taxes, wages, liabilities and responsibilities ahead of you. Enjoy what you can while it lasts. It is true when they say you can […]

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Log – 07:46

Scared, disoriented, overwhelmed, terrified, mournful, wronged, disrespected, neglected, abused. Can not recognise any postings in social media etc, very overwhelmed, sad and scared and dismal – upset at feeling that life had been hijacked, looking back at life that was stolen. Upset, disoriented but mindful and conscious of the d.i.d. Theory and hopeful this blog […]

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I face the songs

Of the blaring similarities observable between thoughts and behaviours designated from my inner voices to my outward actions … and that of diagnostic hallmarks of certain illnesses in the DSM; traits and conditions specifically tailored to identity certain patterns…. specifically that of Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar, Dissociative Amnesia, DID & various characteristics that suggest a […]

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